First, I feel like a noob! I dunno whether its me or the teachers but promos was hard. Never in my life have I admitted truthfully that I screwed up a paper badly and say that I'll most probably fail that paper. And worse, that paper was Maths! WTX! where X is a constant = F! Followed by physics and chem then Econs. Papers are arrange in decreasing probability of failing. GP is ambiguous. Shit man! I dunno whats the point of going to school and mug if in the end I'm gonna screw up.
Second, I'm losing hope. I dunno why but I got this feeling that I have reached a point in my life where all dreams stop coming true. Its like all you hope for just don't happen. So its like no point hoping. What's life without hope? How to move on without hope? What to look forward to?
Third, I got a feeling that I have an alter ego. Yes, sounds crazy. Not really the good and the bad. More like the grateful and the ungrateful. I dunno whether its Satan or me thinking very hard but it really drives me crazy. I'm more towards the ungrateful side right now.
I need help. I need some assurance and some certainty in life. Now everything is just very fuzzy.
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