Lost In Thoughts

Dear Muslim bros, today is 12 Rabi-ul-Awwal. On this day, Rasulullah (SAW) was born and on this day too, he passed away. Let me share with you some stories that sometimes make me weep. I just got them off the web because I'm not good with words. I'm afraid I can't deliver the story well.

Umar's R.A reaction:

On Monday 12th Rabi-ul-Awwal 11 A.H. after an illness lasting thirteen days, Rasulullah (SAW) passed away. Rasulullah (SAW) 's family was plunged into indescribable grief. Hazrat Uthman ibn Affan (RA) fell in a swoon. Hazrat Ali ibn Abu Talib (RA) felt as if the earth had caved in under his feet.

The news spread everywhere and the Muslims of Madinah were stunned and dumbfounded to think that their beloved Nabi (SAW) was no more in this world . On hearing of this sad news, Hazrat Usamah ibn Zayd (RA) came back to Madinah from Jurf with his whole army.

Among those who was struck with disbelief was Hazrat Umar ibn Khattab (RA) . Upon hearing the news and hardly believing it, Hazrat Umar (RA) turned quickly to Rasulullah (SAW) quarters . Upon arrival, he went straight to Rasulullah (SAW) 's bed uncovered and looked at his beloved's face for a while. He perceived its motionless and deathlike appearance as a coma from which he believed Rasulullah would soon emerge. Hazrat Mughirah ibn Shu'bah (RA) tried in vain to convince Hazrat Umar (RA) of the painful fact. When Hazrat Mughrirah (RA) insisted, Hazrat Umar (RA) said in anger:

"Some people are saying that the Rasul (SAW) of Allah had died. By Allah I swear that he did not die: that he has gone to join his Lord, just as Hazrat Moosa (AS) went before. Hazrat Moosa (AS) absented himself from his people for fourteen consecutive nights and returned to them after they had declared him dead. By Allah, the Rasul (SAW) of Allah will return just as Hazrat Moosa (AS) returned. Any man who dares to spread a false rumor such as Muhammed (SAW) death shall have his arms and legs cut off by this hand".

The Sahaba (RA) were becoming anxious at Hazrat Umar (RA)'s outburst. Hazrat Abu Bakr (RA) arrived and entering the quarters of Hazrat Muhammad (SAW) he found that Rasulullah (SAW) was laid down in a corner and covered with a striped cloth. He approached, uncovered the face and kissed the forehead, saying, "How wholesome you are, whether alive or dead!" He then held Rasulullah (SAW) head in his hands and looked closely at the face which showed no sign whatever of death's attack. Laying it down again he said, "What would I not have sacrificed for you! The one death which Allah has decreed for you as for any other man, to taste, you now have tasted. Henceforth, no death shall ever befall you ". He covered the head with the striped cloth and went straight to the masjid where Hazrat Umar (RA) was still proclaiming loudly that Hazrat Muhammad (SAW) had not died. Hazrat Abu Bakr (RA) rose and made a sign to the people that he wished to address them. No one could have dared impose himself upon the congregation in such manner except Hazrat Abu Bakr (RA), for he was the ever trustworthy friend of Rasulullah (SAW) whom Nabi (SAW) would have chosen from among all men. After praising and thanking Allah, Hazrat Abu Bakr (RA) delivered the following brief address:

"O Men, if you have been worshipping Muhammed (SAW) then know that Muhammed (SAW) is dead. But if you have been worshipping Allah, then know that Allah is living and never dies".

With great diplomacy and sense of immense responsibility Hazrat Abu Bakr (RA) then quoted Surah Al-i-Imran which was revealed at Uhad when it was rumored that Rasulullah had been martyred:

"Muhammed (SAW) is but a prophet before whom many prophets have come and gone. Should he die or be killed, will you abjure your faith? Know that whoever abjures his faith will cause no harm to Allah, but Allah will surely reward those who are grateful to him".

Hazrat Abu Bakr (RA)'s call for restraint, calm and submission to the will of Allah, some semblance of order was restored. Hazrat Umar (RA) had calmed down and looked upon Hazrat Abu Bakr (RA) for guidance. (I also heard from some Ustaz that Umar (RA) fell on his knees upon listening to Abu Bakr (RA))

Bilal's (RA) reaction:

After the passing away of Rasulallah (s.a.w), Hazrat Bilal (RA) was overcome with immense grief. This death had completely shattered his heart and in this state, he decided that he could no longer stay in Madinah Sharif. He then gathered his belongings and left for Syria.

He had just left the border of Madinah Sharif, when sleep overcame him. He found a tree to sleep under and took some rest there. In his sleep, Rasulallah (s.a.w) appeared in his dream and said, “Bilal, why did you leave me?” Hazrat Bilal (RA) immediately woke up and, without hesitation, made the journey back to Madinah Sharif.

When the people of Madinah saw Hazrat Bilal (RA) returning through the city gates, they were overwhelmed with joy. Word spread through the streets that Bilal, the Holy Prophet’s Muazzin had returned.

As Hazrat Bilal (RA) made his way to the Holy Prophet’s (SAW) Masjid, requests for him to do the Azan were ringing in his ears. People followed him through the streets, pleading for him to deliver the call to prayer once more. The blessed city had been deprived of his beautiful Azan for too long, and the people craved to hear it one last time. However, since the death of Rasulallah (s.a.w), Hazrat Bilal’s (RA) grief had been so immense that he resolved that he would never do the Azan again, and so he refused the pleas of the people.

As he advanced towards the blessed Masjid, he saw the two beloved grandsons of Rasulallah (s.a.w), Hazrat Hassan (RA) and Hussain (RA) . They too requested for him to do the Azan, and when he looked upon their blessed young faces, his love for them overwhelmed his heart. He knew he could never refuse them anything, and they were, after all, the grandsons of the one whose love had penetrated his heart through and through.

Hazrat Bilal (RA) then stood up on the Mimbar, assumed his position as the Muazzin and started to read the Azan. His voice, beautiful as it was, rang through the streets of Madinah Sharif, his pain and heartbreak evident in the painful tune. He read to his heart’s content, and in such a manner that there was not a person in the blessed city whose eyes were not wet with tears.

When Hazrat Bilal reached “Ash-hadu anna Muhammadur Rasulallah”, he broke down and could not continue. His pain and the pain of Madinah’s people was unbearable.

Memories of the beautiful days when Rasulallah (s.a.w) sat amongst them penetrated their hearts with hurt and agony. The emptiness of their lives and their souls without Rasulallah (s.a.w) had devastated them and left them broken inside. Even the strongest amongst them who were usually able to suppress the pain could not hold back any longer.

The Blind Old Man:

After Rasulullah (SAW) died, Abu Bakar (RA) asked Aisha what did Muhammad’s (SAW) charity that he didn’t do yet. So, Aisha said that Rasulullah (SAW) like to feed a blind old man at the market. Then Abu Bakar (RA) thinks that “that’s easy”. So, tomorrow, he prepare the food and go to the market. He search the old man to the place that Aisha indicated him. When he found the old man, he was surprise that the blind old man screaming cursing Muhammad (SAW) . He was really angry, but he still give the food, and feeding him. But the old man throw the food, he said, “you are not the same man that feed me everyday.” “The man that feed me is so gentle.” “Where is he?” Abu Bakar (RA) said “the man that feed you everyday has pass away, he is the man that you curse, he’s Muhammad (SAW) .” After hear that, the old man crying, then he said “Asyhaduallaa ilaahaillallah.. Wa asyhaduanna Muhammadarrasulullah..”

I hope I did justice to these stories. I hope I can love the Prophet (SAW) the way his companions love him.

Sometimes I really wonder what is the best way to express myself. My true self. My inner voice.

This girl is lucky. She managed to find a way to express herself. Something that I really want to do. I want the people around me to understand me. I want them to know what's bothering me. What's the logic behind the thing's I do. It's easy to judge people. But wait until you get into their shoes. You'll see them differently once you understand their problems.

This song is nice.

Love/Infatuation can do amazing things. Really. It makes you feel freaking high. As if you can do anything in this world. Sadly, that's not always the case. If you are heartbroken, you just feel like shouting at the whole world all that you feel, hoping that it can help take off some weight that you carry in your heart. Yeah. It feels heavy.

It's time to face the truth. Does love always end friendship? Seriously. It doesn't only happen to me. Things supposed to progress from strangers to acquaintances to friends. If you are lucky, the next level is lovers. But somehow it makes people become strangers once again. Why?

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